LindaS wrote:
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I sent you a reply just now, the other night was just a stressful day coming to a head, and a dd who is not sleeping and is doing more studying than anything else lately, then because I've not been feeling well and because I am also stressing about a lot of things we were both not very nice people.
I don't think she went far I think she most likely went around the circle, then probably just sat under a tree for a while, getting soaking wet before finally deciding to come in, then because she was close by the boys couldn't find her because of walking down the road to find her,
Anyway, today is a better day and she did apologize in her way for her behaviour, and she is currently in her room studying, she stayed up late last night studying and got up early today to study and basically has not stopped, she is stressing herself like crazy over a test that is not the end all to end all, but at this moment in time reasoning with her on that matter is not even possible, and the studying wont really hurt her, I am more concerned that she is not sleeping as much as she needs to be. She is exhausted.
You do have to give her an A though for determination and for putting her strong-will to a productive use *(studying is what I mean)
A few weeks ago she told me she was going to write 88 practice essays *she has no difficulty in the area of writing, writing comes naturally to her, but these are timed essasy's she's writing and finding the topic on practice SAT tests,
Then last night she bought a SAT study guide *this is a newer one, and showed me the math section, and told me she plans to do the math quizzes three times each over the next few days ((this is a lot of math)
I think she keeps up at the pace she's been going at the last few weks she's going to collapse from exhaustion pretty soon. Hopefully she won't but I am afraid thats the direction she's headed.
I guess I need to be thankful though because at her age, she could be exhausting herself by wanting to do something dumb like chase after boys (she has a couple of cousins her age who are and are posting on facebook about their "boyfriends etc. ) she is also not involved with drugs, or drinking or anything immoral, she just wants to study like crazy and lose her temper at times at the wrong times, lol I'm afraid she probably has inherited my temper in some areas which is really not a good thing, (I do lots better now adays and I never really lashed out at anyone, but when I'd made my mind up about something especially when I was her age, there wasn't a lot of anything that would change it, lol)
That kind of attitude is what caused me to walk 32 miles once (when I was her age I was married) my dh and me basically got into a bad argument one day just before he left to go to work, I informed him I would be in his truck that night (we had no phone only one vehical and I did not know anyone where we lived,) so of course he said "yeah right" so I told him I'll see you tonight, I was livid, lol (and I didn't scream that either, but I was in his truck that night, and had the blisters to prove I'd walked, it scares me now to think about that, I had blisters on top of blisters and even underneath of my toenails (all of them ended up coming off) *I didn't have proper walking shoes and I ended up walking a lot on the pavement because when it got dark I couldnt see where to put my feet, and there was no street lights or sidewalks where I walked, plus I was really dumb I didnt even take a flashlight, then being in the mtns it really got dark, lol,
Anyways, I'm pretty sure I know exactly where her mean streak comes from at times, I just hope she continues to channel her energy into the right direction, and doesn't have as many blow-ups as I did at her age, I am very thankful she is not like I was in some areas when I was around her age,
Well I chatter a lot, she did finally come in soaking wet, went and took a long hot bath, then by the next afternoon was doing much better in temperment which is a lot better than I would have been at her age.