sigh I sometimes question why *I* feel the Lord asking me to do things that those around me don't need to do. I get almost giddy when I find someone else that is on the same path I'm on. (Not "path" like for salvation.) I'm at a loss to understand but I think I am hearing His instructions for me. Those around me must think I am whacked.
I don't LIKE being "different" in that way. But, it would be so miserable, and wrong, for me not to do as I'm being lead.
My flesh is strong and I'm having a little trouble wrapping my head around my latest direction. It's been confirmed from 3 different directions, so far. It's not a big thing, really, and yet it is. I could say it's akin to being asked to "give up" a specific habit or food or past time. Because of the season I could even say it's like being asked to give up Christmas! (Which I have done for many years now.)
I think it started with my 4 1/2 hours of time alone with the Lord a few weeks ago. Then the kids were here and there was company and sickness and Thanksgiving and finally the kids were gone (yesterday). 2 Tim 2:20-22 are the strongest points - about keeping yourself pure so you can be used for "special" purposes. But the whole chapter speaks to me.
I listened to a lecture today and the comment, "Instead of mourning sin, we are entertained by it. Name it what it is - SIN" struck me.
As careful as I am about what I watch and read and listen to, I am sometimes lulled into accepting some form of sin by characters in a show or a book just so I can justify continuing to watch it. I am struggling with letting go of the things I'm being asked to let go of.
I ENJOY being entertained, not BY their sin but, in spite of it.
Are these "true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable"? (Phil 4:8)
But "everybody" around me not only reads or watches these shows but they talk about them in everyday conversations. I even hear them referenced on Christian radio and from the pulpit.
And yes, it goes beyond shows and books.
It feels like it is touching on every aspect of life! I almost feel like I'm being asked to live on the moon! But, I know I'm not. hehe It's not quite THAT drastic. For my 60th birthday I am being asked to live as a mature Christian woman ought to live, not as unto herself. (See 1 Timothy 5:9!!!)
I have not yet been asked to give up handwork, sewing, etc, but I had to question it!
Anyways, .... just tho't I'd share my journey with ya'll.